This is not a description of my trip I'll be here ...
As always, the beginning is very difficult to write so I'll try my best. This experience is in Lapland as the fulfillment of a dream, what am I doing in Finland: discover the nature, cold, country news, people, animals, living ... short of many things.
This trip took place within a group of 134 participants + attendants who followed us all week, including the bus driver. We lived together third group with approximately 24/24 throughout this trip. Ie with the same heads, morning noon and night. Joint activities also. In short, this may sound stupid but some day people, places, emotions can have an incredible impact on your life.
Although you say:
- People, I could see them again if I want. And then I can keep in touch.
- The places I could go back if I want, nothing is impossible nowadays.
- Emotions, I live for others, that's life.
But here, we must believe that humans are stupid because of me as the other, the feeling is powerful the output of an experience like this. The trip was excellently good, I removed two times more than I expected. I am an incredible amount of activity for a sum not so crazy in comparison. I socialized with a lot of people for the first of my initiative and in english please what will be remembered! I saw the ocean that I had missed so much ... I had encouragement from my girlfriend to give me courage. I skied, I do my sauna, I saw Santa Claus, I played without a drop of alcohol, I learned to fish, I built an igloo (with help ), I made the forest orientation snowy, I approached the edge of the world to the north ....
It's a little in every sense but what I want to express is that I live just a very violent blow cons now after this experience. Fortunately I have a long experience of negative emotions that keeps me from m'effrondrer. Moreover the presence of my love helps a lot. But when she's gone with me, I feel really bad.
I do not necessarily want to relive this experience because it would not be the same and it would be even more depressing. I would not want any more than most because it lasts too long been known. I do not know if I'll try to review key people in this adventure because I realize that this does not lead me anywhere. I have had an invitation to Hong Kong but this remains theoretical and ... what good friends we do not keep a time.
far I envied those who were friends and lived their stay at 100% but I see that I was perhaps better insulated ... At least I could say "I leave when I want without look behind me "... Today, my best solo trip just ended and I'm not happy ... This time I lived there before and observe the problem is that it brings happiness, something I can not handle alone ... I only know one person who allows me to channel all that positive emotion. Her name is Marie-Elyse use Dugué but I use the rather diminutive My Soori-designate for the Vampire.
Tonight, my love, I wanted to tell you that I want to cry. I feel like crying with joy and sadness at a time. It was too good and it's over but it should not continue, however. Talk to you makes me immense good to overcome that. Think about these coming days is also a strong reassurance for me. I do not know if I won or lost something with this trip. But fortunately, I got you, and most important to me. I love you
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